My theology department in college was fantastic. It was chaired by a leading ecumenical Christian woman, Kelly Brown Douglas, for whom I have a ton of respect. She taught this one class called Que(e)rying Religion. I didn’t take and I didn’t take it on purpose. I find myself completely undecided on the whole thing. (Please don’t use that as an excuse to hit me with a billion verses. I promise I’ve read them.) I’ve read the scripture. I’ve discarded the old testament laws. I’ve put the verses in context. I can tell the difference between a discussion on hospitality and a critique of homosexuality. Anyway, why didn’t I take it? I mean I took literally every other one of her classes while I was there. So why skip that one and end up doing an ill-fated independent study when I could be guided by such a prominent ecumenical thinker? Because I didn’t have a viewpoint on it. It may seem strange, but I don’t like to study or read books on a subject before I have an opinion. Even if my opinion changes, I don’t want to take the chance that someone else will define my thinking for me.
-As an aside why would we want to use a passage where a father willingly hands over his daughters to rapists to push a point on homosexuality? Seems like there’s more going on there that’s of concern.-
I had a lot of questions and very few answers. Is homosexuality hereditary? No, I didn’t think so. Is homosexuality a sin? Is is a “super’ sin? No, that didn’t seem right. Would homosexuality bring down our nation? i didn’t believe that… Was it born into someone? I thought it really was. Will their right to get married ruin marriage? That one I thought was ridiculous. Yeah, I had a lot of questions, but it was the Biblically specific and human conflict ones that really kept me from searching it out. I knew people who were gay and I thought some of them were beautiful people and some were not so awesome. Some had fabulous relationships that I envied. Some had an undeniably loving monogamous relationship that knocked me off my feet. Where would I put that if it turn out that there was no way around the idea that it was not acceptable at all? That is the part that kept me from taking the class. It’s one of the regrets of my college studies, that I didn’t take that course. I know that Kelly would have presented the evidence without making me thinking about it in a certain way, but allowing me to decide.
To this day, I don’t have what I think about it nailed down. I certainly don’t feel that homosexuals need to first person identify as such. I feel their ability to parent wonderful kids won’t be impeded in any way by being gay. And I think people like Britney Spears and Jennifer Lopez are doing more to destroy the institution of marriage than gay marriage would. I also feel with the gay Christian community who are struggling to make sense of themselves because the want to make their relationships valid before God with marriage, but are being prevented that. As far as the rest of it… the jury’s still out and for me that’s okay. And even though I try to stay out of it, Lord, Save Us From Your Followers resonates with me. And so I’ve decided, I’ll just love people like I believe God would want me to and leave the semantics to someone else.