Honestly, I feel as though I am trying to be converted.
I come across these blogs all the time speaking out about the church in the same way that I like to. I feel a camaderie with the people who have left Christianity because of the church even though I have chosen to keep my faith. I feel that way because it very easily could have been me. I was so ready and willing to give it all up, but because I met Kelly Brown Douglas and learned that legalism doesn’t have to be the be all and end all of faith; I didn’t have to. I love reading those blogs because I feel like I am not alone.
But often if/when I mention my personal experience and the fact that I am still a Christian, I get assailed. It’s usually not by the blog holder, but by the followers or readers of the blog. If I can make a comical comparison, it feels like when a church senses a non-believer and sounds the Bible horn to thump them until they agree. You say one thing, they take it as another. They say they like your approach, but call it unChristian or heretical. Either way, I nearly always feel as though I have been taken down several notches rather than mutually respected. And worse, I feel like that is the goal. If I say something that resonates, I am often patted like a child on the head as though I am naive and will find my way eventually. If I say something that isn’t kosher, then I am attacked and gutted usually with bizarre referneces to Bible verses.
Yahoo! Answers is the worst. I used to have fun answering questions on there until I realized that most were predatory Christians and atheists seeking whom they could devour with pointed and argumentative questions. In my opinion, it’s all fundementalism. That need to attack and convert rather than discuss and question and respect. I say that because more often than not I am a fundementalist independent (politically). I am more able to attack than to graciously discuss my opinions. What can I say? I’m working on it.
Ps. A rant. Please don’t stone me.