Name a free woman that you know, what you could learn from her? My forehead wrinkles, my eyes look left and right and up, as if looking around my empty room will manifest a free woman in my life from whom I can learn. I don’t know any. I know women who are standing on … Continue reading
Category Archives: Life
Freedom to Fail
My son is sitting across from me doing Math-U-See. Doing this for a month and a half very very sporadically and never forcing him to keep going after his interest wanes, we’ve accomplished 88 pages of work that’s 20% of the total coursework for math for his kindergarten year. Currently he is crossing out the … Continue reading
Our place at the table: Contributor
That word still pings around in my head. Contributor. I’m a contributor, failure; I’m unambitious, lazy, selfish. These, and many others, I have been called for being a stay at home mom. You’d think moms would have this amazing thread tying them together, something so much bigger than us that binds us all in some … Continue reading
On loving a mirror
My endeavor in this blog has always been to ask hard questions of myself, life, God, others. In that, I have tried my very best to be truthful. There have been times in the past when I was being truthful, but it didn’t feel like it. Some people bring that out of me more than … Continue reading
Because you can hear it’s cry
If there were a fire and in the fire there was one baby and a crate of a hundred fertilized embryos, which would you save if you could only save one? Meant to be inflammatory, this question has stuck with me for several weeks because it shines a light on the truth. We would save … Continue reading
Emotional labor and Race
This is the bulk of emotional labor. We are the managers of our children, husbands and homes. We are the noticers, and we need to educate the rest of our household on their roles and duties. Continue reading
Where I’m at now
In the bathroom with sound cancelling headphones with my daughter crying outside the door, that’s where I’m at now. Crying and overwhelmed as she cries and screams on the floor feet from me, in my arms it makes no difference. For months and months I went to her for every whimper and when I held … Continue reading
How I learn
Growing up, I was sure. I liked being the person who had the answers and I still do. I enjoy being the person that can find them out even if I don’t know them. My curiosity is very strong, but I grew up being taught that curiosity for its own sake wasn’t right. We didn’t … Continue reading
The third Thursday
While we lift our voices up in praise and adoration and thanksgiving, others are lifting up their voices in anguish and lament. Continue reading
A Day in the Mind of Millennial
Being a millennial is lying awake at night thinking, “Oh shit, the bees! The bees are dying and if they die, we die. I have to do something about it!” It’s getting out my phone and researching what I can do to help save the bees. It’s waking up my husband and asking him if … Continue reading