On loving a mirror

My endeavor in this blog has always been to ask hard questions of myself, life, God, others. In that, I have tried my very best to be truthful. There have been times in the past when I was being truthful, but it didn’t feel like it. Some people bring that out of me more than … Continue reading →

Because you can hear it’s cry

If there were a fire and in the fire there was one baby and a crate of a hundred fertilized embryos, which would you save if you could only save one? Meant to be inflammatory, this question has stuck with me for several weeks because it shines a light on the truth. We would save … Continue reading →

How I learn

Growing up, I was sure. I liked being the person who had the answers and I still do. I enjoy being the person that can find them out even if I don’t know them. My curiosity is very strong, but I grew up being taught that curiosity for its own sake wasn’t right. We didn’t … Continue reading →

Un-woke

There are times I wish I could un-know things, knowing things is such a burden. There are times I wish I could un-see things, like someone’s humanity, seeing souls is such a heavy thing. There is self righteousness in that I know- that need to correct, to feel that I need to (and can) enlighten. … Continue reading →

Upkeep, Can you keep up?

It stings twice as much when you try. Don’t you think? You give it your best effort. You put yourself out there, make yourself a little vulnerable, right? 90-10. 10-90. Depending on what the situation is that is how important it is in your relationship. Sometimes something can be only 10, until it’s missing then … Continue reading →

Rising tide lifts all boats

In comes the tide And higher and higher I go with it But always waiting for it go out again What will it leave behind? The shells of those who didn’t make it The doomed And the damned Remain on the shore. One night on the beach The tide went out And with a flashlight … Continue reading →

Ideals and the People Who Wish they Had Them

Mediocre music. Mediocre day. Mediocre drive. Mediocre clothes and the people who wear them. Mediocre marriage. Mediocre job. Mediocre life. Mediocre motivation and the people who have some. Mediocre minds. Mediocre curiosity. Mediocre times. And the people who have none. What a waste. What a waste of time. So short and we waste it all … Continue reading →

What I’m for

This blog has become a place to blow of steam. I tend to write an awful lot more when I am in some kind of emotional upheaval. Again and again, I find myself writing about the negatives and the criticisms. Well, that’s getting a little depressing and I have a ton to be thankful for … Continue reading →

The Other Side of the World to me.

After an apology from one kind Christian for all the evils Christianity has done against her, she looks at him with a mixture of anger and aplomb and asks: Why don’t you just jump ship? And it’s such an honest question? If you have to apologize for it all the time. If you have to … Continue reading →

Resolutely Timid aka Ass Backwards

Sometimes I feel like I get things ass backwards. Words are more likely to be music to me than any soundtrack will ever be. I hear the nuance behind the words, The meaning, before I hear the words themselves. I see his beauty before I realize he is broken and The more broken you become … Continue reading →