Where I’m at now

In the bathroom with sound cancelling headphones with my daughter crying outside the door, that’s where I’m at now. Crying and overwhelmed as she cries and screams on the floor feet from me, in my arms it makes no difference. For months and months I went to her for every whimper and when I held … Continue reading →

How I learn

Growing up, I was sure. I liked being the person who had the answers and I still do. I enjoy being the person that can find them out even if I don’t know them. My curiosity is very strong, but I grew up being taught that curiosity for its own sake wasn’t right. We didn’t … Continue reading →

Which version is God’s true Word?

Since I’ve had my children, I notice that the order of my reactions has changed drastically. I used to react academically first, then emotionally. It took me a year or two to cultivate that skill, but now it’s lost. I react emotionally first, and then revisit the academic as a luxury. I say this because … Continue reading →

Un-woke

There are times I wish I could un-know things, knowing things is such a burden. There are times I wish I could un-see things, like someone’s humanity, seeing souls is such a heavy thing. There is self righteousness in that I know- that need to correct, to feel that I need to (and can) enlighten. … Continue reading →

What comes after your amen?

Did you ever think at eighteen you’d be talking about this? He asked me as though the thought of traveling to Morocco is a wild, unthinkable thing. I replied with a resounding yes, but it’s partially a lie. I never thought I would be planning a sight seeing trip to an African country. I thought … Continue reading →

In the Wake of Purity Culture: The Fall of Joshua Harris

There is a trend in progressive Christianity that I don’t quite understand. It seems to have a very defined culture but it’s source seems elusive. Its the deconstruction and reconstruction part of the movement. I don’t know that it is a movement, but I’ll call it one because it seems to be such to me. … Continue reading →

If she does not struggle, does it also follow that she is not held?

The show The Handmaid’s Tale has revived interest in the somewhat prophetic novel. It has such depth and scope and covers so many relevant issues that we are facing right now. To me, one of the most fascinating and important, but also difficult to swallow is the dynamic experience of rape throughout the show. We … Continue reading →